Sunday, November 6, 2011

Wow....Time sure does fly!

I can't believe it has been nearly a year since I have posted on my blog.  I started it last year as a way to cope/manage with my husbands deployment and now I find myself a little over a month into the very same situation.  I had my first little meltdown tonight.  Actually, in front of my small group Bible study friends.  My 6 year old daughter always seems to act out while my hubby is gone and I think it all weighs extra heavy on me while he is gone as well.  The combination has been hard on me.  I know so many other moms have the same struggles as me where they don't seem to be doing the right things or feel like failures.  Unfortunately for me right now there is no one to help pick up the slack.  I am going to get all my whining out on this post so that the rest can be much more uplifting! : )  I love my children, but man I sure wish I knew how to enjoy my 6 year old more.  She has such a good heart, but also knows exactly how to push every button I have.  Isn't it sad that I let her?  I know that God can use this time to strengthen us as a family, I just hope that I don't waste this opportunity because I can't get my attitude right. : (